Wednesday, 11 December 2019


The forty-eighth Moon Prize, goes to Lauren Camp's poem "Plucking the Lake from Devotion."


Plucking the Lake from Devotion

by Lauren Camp


The music of worship needs sometimes to echo
a body of water, the makers of breath
to be saved by unfaltering nature,
to be drawn from their traces, and travel
above to a clearing. So you might understand why
we should not be allowed to wander
into every larkspur and trail fork, why we must leave
some domains in the distance, not structure a day
with backpacks and bootprints
around someone’s temple—the depth that holds
context for hope. Reality is sometimes more
myth than contours. I’m narrowing down to a specific
soil in the desert and a time older
than the sum of its parts. When water had edges
and basins and pine into distance. The version
most often repeated claims two eagle plumes
sited a pueblo on a land draped with bare places.
In dust and from dust, strong arms wrought repeating
walls and ladders to fathom the sky. Wind bent
and reshaped and vanished. The people lived
in dimensions of owl between dawn and moon. Lived hard
in their origins as cool water flowed
from the mountain. Water was favor, and they named
its crossing for fields, fire and horses. Hawks passed above
and aimed with grand movement. Around them
over time, the people saw violence—new roads, wire fences
and closure. The crowd of such disruption creased
their reason but they bent again with stone
to the corn, transferred thought back to the sparing
desert, returned up their rungs. To gather their senses
they climbed past the amber
hair of the deer through sun-glare and hills
to a lake far from the near earth
of the normal. The vessel of nothing but tears,
to each other’s reflection. They went to the lake to rename
their universe, to say Not today Not
tomorrow, and to measure the cause
of their home and of regular days. At the lake ripples
choired, open-mouthed. And look, here’s a danger line: the lake
belonged to the people. To catch their pleas
and whatever they do when they need
another essential beginning. The strong people
might only have needed the repentant light. Or they might
have offered their flaws or other injustice. I’ll never know.
And you should never know, and that’s the importance.
When I read about the lake’s acquisition, I imagine
spirited flowers that spiral up
beside water. We all want to be changed
by such colors. The truth is other people were given
permission to hike the beautiful earth
and photograph its shimmers. Borrow the blue.
Tell me when do you want others in your prayers? Tell me
how a lake could be taken. The strong people took
truth as burden, but remembered standing safe
against sky when the lake was glad to see them.
Years crawled over the water without offering
this private sequential shape for wounded refrains
and invocations. A request isn’t always
a solution. The people asked in languages for the extravagant
muscle of water, its many windows. They asked
its solace. They asked and asked
and with drummed cadence. For 64 years, they asked
with dented voices, shuffling vowels.
And when the lake was returned, they planted their feet
in its mist, offered it wings, bones and their endings.


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"Plucking the Lake from Devotion" is from Turquoise Door (3: A Taos Press, 2018) by Lauren Camp.

Lauren Camp is the author of four books of poems. Her work has been honored with the Dorset Prize, fellowships from Black Earth Institute and The Taft-Nicholson Center, and a finalist citation for the Arab American Book Award. Her poems have been translated into Mandarin, Turkish, Spanish and Arabic. www.laurencamp.com


Tuesday, 10 December 2019


Let Me Show You Sister

by Rebecca Turner


You have been wounded
just grazed
and your anger has you crazed.
I see you sister, ejecting the pain.
Spitting hateful words hoping to tarnish and stain.
You think your anger will keep it from happening again
and that your defenses will save you from other's sins.
I wish I could tell you it gets better
that the thorns hurt less
but I only have the truth, nothing else left.
I see you, my girl,
and you need to see me.
The cuts on my bones
breaks to my heart and bruises to my ego
would rip you apart.
Each betrayal intertwined around my frame like veins
and I use it for fuel to torch my pain.
Come let me hold you my perfect little girl
and I'll show you my scars
so you know that you can survive this world.

Monday, 9 December 2019


Choices 

by Mary McCarthy

  
I found some things called love 
were best avoided 
like the sweet faced liar 
who robs you blind 
and leaves you behind 
disposable 
as a used tissue 
or the one you pick up 
like a bad rash 
that blisters and torments 
and never heals 
or the handsome stranger 
who puts his mark on you 
deep and obvious 
as a cattle brand 
  
I would not be caught by love 
in crooked definitions 
not kept in a closed room 
or on a short leash 
not loved in teaspoons 
or inch by inch 
not with a blueprint                     
or by the book 
not with requirements 
to recite a catechism 
or rehearse a script 
but wait for you to come to me 
freely 
with an open hand 
and no great expectations 
I would be perfection 
or carry your salvation 
or do more than meet you here 
in the open 
where we both can stand 


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Mary McCarthy has always been a writer but spent most of her working life as a Registered Nurse. Her work has appeared in many print and online journals, including Third Wednesday, Earth's Daughters, the Ekphrastic Review, and Verse Virtual. Her electronic chapbook, Things I Was Told Not to Think About, is available as a free download from Praxis magazine.

Sunday, 8 December 2019


The Visitor
by Mariya Khan

I bite my nails as I wait for the rolls to finish in the oven. Zach and his mother are supposed to come over for dinner soon. Although it’s been four months since the war ended, I haven’t seen Zach since I healed him at the hospital. Ever since he revealed Edward was missing, I don’t know how to talk to him anymore. It’s weird to be around my brother’s best friend without him here. And Zach seemed so different at the hospital. Besides the prickly stubble, hollowed skin, and dirty fingernails, he had that exhausted look in his eyes that made him seem so broken.
How is he now? I wonder if he acts “normal” like the other men I’ve seen. Some don’t look like they fought in a war before, like they didn’t spend the past three years trudging through thick Pacific jungles. Others walk with a silent look on their faces. Perhaps Zach is applying for teaching jobs. I know he wants me to consider marrying him. He didn’t specifically say it when he left the hospital, but I knew from his goodbye kiss that he wanted to. Oh god, I hope Zach doesn’t today. I don’t know what I would say. Truthfully, if there was no war and Edward was still here, we’d probably be married by now. But right now I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I’m just working at the local hospital because I don’t know what else to do.
Take rolls out; set trays on counter. 
Oh, I hate how the sash gets caught in the oven door! I still don’t understand why Mother made me change into this dress. She thinks I look slimmer, even though I’m already slimmer from the war. It does not matter, anyway. Zach doesn’t care what I’m wearing. I don’t even care what I wear nowadays. Besides my nursing uniform, I only wear pajamas, since I never leave the house unless it’s for my shift.
Zach and his mother aren’t here yet, so I start washing the dishes in the sink. Ever since my return, Mother’s been forcing me to wash all of them before we eat. She says it’s because she’s getting old and too tired to wash anything after dinner. One more of the strange lifestyle changes she made while Edward and I were gone.
The doorbell rings, but Mother runs to answer. With their arrival, the house already feels transformed as their laughter echoes throughout. I can’t remember the last time Mother or I laughed at something. God, it must have been before the war, when Edward was still with us. Instead of going to greet them, I remain in the kitchen. 
Rinse the pot; scrape off the grease; wet and soap the sponge; scrub the pot; wash it off; place upside down on drying rack.
“Oh, hi, Kendra! What are you doing back here by yourself?”
I turn to face Zach’s mother, who is standing at the kitchen entryway. 
Smile
“Oh, just washing some pots. I’ll join in a minute.”
“You make Kendra work too hard, Denise,” Ms. Jennings laughs. “Let Zach help, Kendra!”
“N-No, I’m fine, Ms. Jennings,” I insist. “It’ll just be a minute.”
“Oh, relax! You know, ever since Zach’s return, he’s been more involved with the cleaning around the house.”
Scrub, scrub, scrub
“Wish he did when he was younger, though.” Her grin invites me to share her cheerfulness, but my fake smile grows smaller.
“God, Mother,” chuckles Zach.
Zach’s good-natured smile towers over his mother. I must admit, I miss that smile. His shirt and khakis fit him better than his uniform did in the hospital, and his tousled curls have grown so much that he has to brush them back with his fingers. He seems normal, at least.
“Leave Kendra alone, Mother. Your best friend’s over there.”
Zach’s mother howls in laughter and leaves the kitchen. Zach sheepishly smiles, his hand rubbing the back of his neck.
“Sorry about that. What do you need help with?”
“I’m fine, Zach.” The last thing I wanted was to be alone with Zach. It’s difficult to hide anything from him. And I don’t feel like trying to hide from him at the moment. “Seriously, don’t worry about me. I’m fine.”
Zach joins me anyway. He unbuttons the tiny buttons on his wrists and rolls up his sleeves. “I wash, you dry?” Before I can respond, his hands grab the scrubber I momentarily dropped when I said hello to his mother. I sigh and grab a towel to start drying.
We work in silence, even though I know that Zach is itching to speak. I notice him glancing at me while he washes. Maybe he’s trying to see if I seem okay. Maybe he’s not used to seeing me out of my nursing uniform.
“How’s your wound?” I quietly asked.
Zach smiles as he rinses soap off a spoon. “It’s just a scar now. Completely healed, thanks to you.”
I look up at his face. Now that I’m looking at it more intently, I can see wrinkles that fold into his skin and blend in with his slightly dark circles, and I see a glossiness in his hazel eyes. It seems like he’s been crying a lot. Is he still thinking about Edward and his friends from the war? Now that he’s home, does he constantly remember his memories with Edward and wish, like I do, that he can experience them again?
Zach must have noticed my investigative expression, because his eyes quickly shift back on the dishes and his smile disappears.
“I’m fine, Kendra,” he mutters, water splashing as he works. As he hands them to me, his fingers momentarily touch mine. His softened callouses tell me not to worry. They’re smoother than the ones I’d rub for hours at the hospital. They’re even different than the ones that said goodbye before the war. For some reason, I like these fingers more – I can feel that the pain has somewhat rubbed away but it still remains. I keep my fingers attached to his.
“Drop those dishes and come eat, you two!”
Our mothers both parade into the kitchen, their cheerfulness invading the quiet space. I immediately separate my fingers from Zach’s. Zach, irritated, turns around to face them. I refocus on the dishes, so no one can see my tears mixing with the soapy water.


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Mariya Khan is a graduate of The George Washington University and Summer Institute at the University of Iowa International Writing Program. Her work has received awards from the Soul-Making Keats Literary Competition and appeared in the Summer Institute anthology Multitudes and Creative Kids. When she's not working as an Editorial Assistant at National Geographic Books, she's trying new recipes and watching crime dramas.  

Saturday, 7 December 2019


Only Daughter

by Sheila Jacob


I ignored escape routes and wedged myself  
on the train for a two-hour journey, caught
a bus to my mother’s house then another
to the hospital where she lay angry and afraid.

Why I had taken so long, chosen
the wrong set of teeth from her bedroom
and bought spearmint sweets not peppermints?
Go and fetch them she scolded and I sobbed

at her bedside; ached with the fatigue
of daughtering; with the weight of mothering
the woman who’d carried me yet clung,
bird-frail and bewildered, to my coat-sleeve.

When she recovered I cried at the miracle.
On her ninetieth birthday she called me Darling,
arranged festive flowers in a cut-glass vase
and unwrapped my gift of a cameo brooch.

She pinned it on her blouse, said she’d keep it
for special occasions and we stepped outside,
ambled round her lawn as though we’d always
walked arm in arm and deep in conversation.


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Sheila Jacob lives in North Wales with her husband. She was born and raised in Birmingham, England, and enjoys writing about her working-class ‘50’s and ‘60’s childhood. Her poems have been published in a number of U.K. magazines and poetry websites. She has recently self-published a small collection of poems dedicated to her Dad who died when she was fourteen.


Friday, 6 December 2019


WORKING THE CRISIS HOTLINE

by Dianne Moritz


Down by the river
in cramped quarters,
telephones ring non-stop.
Young people, women

mostly, quickly pick up.
Voices cry out: Help me!
I’m too high; Someone
followed me; And…

Then he raped me.
This new recruit,
sensitive as bruised skin
calmly tries on comfort:

Stay cool. Talk to me.
Breathe, just breathe, I say.
All night long, I care,
console, my heart

racing, as perspiration
blurs worn referral cards.
During a brief silence,
I glance out a dark window,

see the roiling water,
imagine my body
floating downstream.
At shift’s end I exit, running...running.


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"Working the Crisis Hotline" was first published in Stitch (May 1, 2019).

Dianne Moritz writes poetry and picture books for children. Adult essays have been published in The NY Times, LA Times, Woman’s World, Romantic Homes, Sunday Woman, Our Iowa, and others. Online memoir pieces have been in Fewer Than 500. Spillwords, The Drabble, Writing in a Woman’s Voice, and elsewhere. Visit her website: diannemoritz.wordpress.com and her author page on amazon.com.


Thursday, 5 December 2019


GLANCING IN THE MIRROR

By Dianne Moritz


He says, “I can’t wait for tomorrow.”
Spicy cologne splashes his craggy face.
Warm steam sweats the cool glass,
as she giggles and plays along.
“Because I get better looking every day!”

Watching him comb back thick, gray
feathered hair, goosebumps prickle
her thin arms.  She steps close, kisses
his damp, worn cheek, startled to see
crow’s feet scratching the corners of her eyes.


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Dianne Moritz writes poetry and picture books for children. Adult essays have been published in The NY Times, LA Times, Woman’s World, Romantic Homes, Sunday Woman, Our Iowa, and others. Online memoir pieces have been in Fewer Than 500. Spillwords, The Drabble, Writing in a Woman’s Voice, and elsewhere. Visit her website: diannemoritz.wordpress.com and her author page on amazon.com.