Tuesday, 13 December 2016

(Three Little Words) for Francesca Bell

by Alexis Rhone Fancher


1.
M has never said I love you before.
Not to me.

2.
He cries at weddings, like a girl.

3.
The sex is only good if were totally fucked up.
It blurs how wrong we are for each other.

4.
English is not Ms native tongue. It eludes him.

5.
Maybe he misspoke?
His prepositions hang mid-air.

He says its hard to think when its hard.

6.
Ms white teeth nibble at my clit like a ferret. 
The two front ones indent slightly; 
it makes him look goofy, like a joke.

Sometimes when we have sex, Ms calico meow trips
across my back. Rakes a claw. Caterwauls. 

She doesnt want me here.

Sometimes when we have sex, I am the one in heat.

7.
Outside, the tin roof rain suicides 
on the hard-packed earth. 

M is fucking me from behind, his
body melded into my ass, fingers kneading my breasts.
Hes mumbling up the courage.
I know what hes trying to say.
I want to fuck him mute.

8.
In the bedroom theres this
Dennis Hopper photo of Tuesday Weld,
driving, top down, blonde hair streaming.
Circa 1968. Shes unfettered.

Why can’t he see that
I am that girl, my top down, 
my hair streaming,
my consequence-less life?

9.
M. bought the print for me but
I don’t want it.
I want nothing from him but
a silent film, a carnival.
I want him to want that, too.

I want him to shut up but 
he zeros in on my ear

and says it.

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©Alexis Rhone Fancher. First Published in Cactus Heart Magazine, 2014

Los Angeles poet, Alexis Rhone Fancher, is the author of How I Lost My Virginity to Michael 
Cohen and other heart stab poems, (2014), State of Grace: The Joshua Elegies, (2015), and 
Enter Here (forthcoming in 2017). She is published in Best American Poetry 2016, Rattle, 
Slipstream, Rust+Moth, streetcake, Hobart, Cleaver, Public Pool, H_NGM_N, Fjords Review, 
The MacGuffin, and elsewhere. Her photographs are published worldwide. A multiple Pushcart 
Prize and Best of The Net nominee, Alexis is poetry editor of Cultural Weekly, where she also 
publishes a monthly photo essay, “The Poet’s Eye,” about her on-going love affair with Los 
Angeles. Find her at: www.alexisrhonefancher.com